Emo Like Shit

LOL, long time no emo post, so here's one!

I don't want everything already! I want be return back to 2004, end of Secondary 4. Life's so much simpler then.

I must say byebye to everyone in Singapore! I'm so sad! :( I'm a disgusting emo.

I don't want anything and everything. Take them back and leave me with myself.

I want to be happy again! :( Can I not go? Can I permanently delete some memories in my life? ARGHS!

Out Of My Mind

分手第7天 - 黄湘怡 词曲: 黄湘怡

很想知道你最近过得怎样 是否还像以往 不多话 很想拨通电话 问你好吗 却怕听你声音会更伤 分手第7天 就像永远 对你的思念 一天加多一点 分手第7天 就像永远 每当闭上双眼 你就在我眼前 你就在眼前 很想握你的手 重新来过 却知不可能的事太多 分手有时不是 为了谁错 只能默默接受着心痛

很想握你的手 重新来过

I'm Such A Fool For You

戴佩妮 - 怎样 作词: 戴佩妮 作曲: 戴佩妮

我这里天快要黑了 那里呢 我这里天气凉凉的 那里呢 我这里一切都变了 我变的懂事了 我又开始写日记了 而那你呢 我这里天快要亮了 那里呢 我这里天气很炎热 那里呢 我这里一切都变了 我变的不哭了 我把照片也收起了 而那你呢 如果我们现在还在一起会是怎样 我们是不是还是深爱着对方 像开始时那样 握着手就算天快亮 我们现在还在一起会是怎样 我们是不是还是隐瞒着对方 像结束时那样 明知道你没有错 还硬要我原谅 我不会原谅 我怎么原谅

I must be strong, but how?

Bye Bye

曲名: 分手吧 歌手: 张震岳 词曲: 张震岳

写一封没有地址的信 想寄到你的心里 告诉你渐渐变淡的爱 你是否曾经注意 过去的美丽日子已经不再 我还在傻傻地找寻 也许你想要说但说不出口 我知道你想说 分手吧 我们分手吧 不要在骗我说你还爱著我 你我的梦 彼此的不同 就算是当作一时糊涂爱错 分手吧 我们分手吧 不要在骗我说你还爱著我 你我的梦 彼此的不同 就算是当作一时糊涂爱错 分手吧 写一封没有地址的信 想寄到你的心里 告诉你渐渐变淡的爱 你是否曾经注意 过去的美丽日子已经不再 我还在傻傻地找寻 也许你想要说但说不出口 我知道你想说 分手吧 我们分手吧 不要在骗我说你还爱著我 你我的梦 彼此的不同 就算是当作一时糊涂爱错 分手吧 我们分手吧 不要在骗我说你还爱著我 你我的梦 彼此的不同 就算是当作一时糊涂爱错 分手吧 分手吧 我们分手吧 不要在骗我说你还爱著我 你我的梦 彼此的不同 就算是当作一时糊涂爱错 分手吧 我们分手吧 不要在骗我说你还爱著我 你我的梦 彼此的不同 就算是当作一时糊涂爱错 分手吧

If only I could be a player and laugh about all these.

Excruciating

The pain at the back of my head, the pain on the left side of my neck. And the pain.

原来你 II

曲名: 原来你 歌手: 范逸臣 专辑: 不说出的温柔 作词: 姚智伟 作曲: 范逸臣 编曲: 李士先

我猜不透 你的眼眸 欲止又言 对我诉说 那是快乐 还是寂寞 选择沉默 我背对着 感情再多 被你冷落 我的心痛 无法形容 原来你不是我的彩虹 带给我笑容 原来你住在我的心里 却不知道 我的感受 原来爱从来不值得我 为你一直守候 原来爱情独特的温柔 不属于我 选择沉默 我背对着 感情再多 被你冷落 我的心痛 无法形容 原来你不是我的彩虹 带给我笑容 原来你住在我的心里 却不知道我的感受 原来爱从来不值得我 为你一直守候 原来爱情独特的温柔 不属于我 原来你离开我的左右 留给我伤痛 原来失去了你的生活 我的星空不再闪烁 我的爱给得毫无保留 却被你没收 我的爱被你挡在门口 我该不该 继续逗留 我低着头 告诉自己 我该放手 我猜不透 你的眼眸 感情再多 被你冷落

Sighs

Sighs, recess week.
Sighs, other stuff.
Sighs, emo.

I blogged somewhere else yesterday.

I Am A Terrible

Please let me know, I can take it.
And you can have the bucket of water that wells up in my eyes.

This sounds like some song lyrics. =S

See Ya!

Bon voyage and have a great time in Finland, GG#02!

I feel like some stupid kid who cannot seem to understand the rough patches others are going through and yet behaving in a spoilt, rotten manner. In fact, I am ashamed of myself.

Spells Trouble

I want to master Legilimency, so that I don't have to keep asking people if they know what they are doing, so that I know what they are doing tallies with what they are thinking.

I want to master Occlumency, so that I can keep my thoughts to myself, so that I do not reveal a single thing to any other person.

I want to master Levicorpus, so that I can hoist people in the air and make them suspend there as a punishment.

I want to master Expecto Patronum, so that I can be protected by a silvery zebra mist.

Lumos, light up your life like a lightbulb.

Remove the Confundus Charm.

Imperio. Crucio. Avada Kedavra.

Oh, Happy Belated 2009

It's 2009, not Happy 2009, I mean it's Belated 2009, not Happy Belated 2009.

Sleeping loads so that my mind is occupied with dreams and not thoughts.

I dreamt that I scolded people for making lots of noise while I was sleeping. Yeah, I don't like people to make a lot of noise and I don't like the lights on when I am sleeping. And I have a terrible temper if people disturb my sleep.

ROAR. It's complicated, the story of A, B, C and it's time to include a D.

Happy New Year's Day Eve

It's New Year's Day Eve but not Happy New Year's Day Eve.

End of year is an indication of making amendments for the bad deeds done in the year.

It's time to start anew. Tomorrow.

That's Why You Go Away

Don't tell me the one with spoiled brains is me!

That's Why You Go Away by Jascha Richter

Baby won't you tell me why, there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye, to you
Love is one big illusion, I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up, now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost, right now
Now you want me to forget, every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feelings so strong, were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man, your heart is missing
That's why you go away, I know

You were never satisfied, no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye, to me
Love is one big illusion, I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feelings so strong, were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man, your heart is missing
That's why you go away, I know

Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There ain't so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me anymore

I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feelings so strong, were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man, your heart is missing
That's why you go away, I know

I Should Be The One

Apologising.
But I am too weak to do so.

Taking the blame.
My pride impedes that.

Admitting the mistake.
Warped thinking makes me right always.

Stopping the tears.
My guilt flows.

Repenting.
Amithabha.

Disappearing.
I think I can.

Removed from this world.
It nearly happened.

Seeking forgiveness.
Who will forgive such a sinner?

Keeping quiet.
My intrudence is disturbing.

I belong to.
No one knows me better than You.

A short poem? A short song? I don't know what that is. MSN Plus allows multiple sign-ins. But always remember to Forget Me.

Don't Antagonise Me

I took a nap and nearly could not wake up. In the dream state, I could not open my eyes for a long time, they will close back. Not the first time I have such weird dreams. I tried to shake myself awake but to no avail too. Maybe I was too traumatised in the afternoon.

Yes, I am a very proud person, don't hit too hard on my ego. You'll pay.

Mini surprises are always heartening. Log book and bicycle.

Clean Break

Maybe it isn't so clean after all. Some part of it is still lingering around. It's my toenail. Some part of it can't bear to part with me, while the rest has decided that I am no longer worth it staying.

What is analogous and what isn't.

I want the world either to stop spinning totally or freeze where it currently is.

For Seekers

I have cleared up many thoughts with Wordpress. And so I am back on Blogger today.

This is such a lunatic world! So much work to do in so little time. So many things to say using only one mouth. So many things to interpret with only a brain made up of peanuts. So much sleep to catch up on, simply because I cannot stop falling asleep.

Oh my, after that paragraph I sort of feel I need to go back to Wordpress again. My dependency on people and things is creeping up. I can’t imagine anybody has ever said I am independent. Even if I were to go back to Wordpress, I know it’s hard to pen my thoughts because they have reached a higher level which my grasp of the English language cannot manage anymore. In fact, my grasp of any human-known language cannot explain much. Beyond words and phrases, what a useless expression.

For the most sought-after name, back-track, crack, reveal, compile, debug, recompile, test, pass course marker and presto, you’re very much done.

If

If life is getting too tired for your liking, take a step back and think.
If taking a step back is too hard a thing to do, bring forward your ideas into action.
If forwarding ideas into action isn’t your style, lower yourself so no one will notice.
If lowering yourself is an insult, restore your esteem with something you are proud of.
If there is nothing in your possession which makes you proud, life is indeed getting too tired for your liking.

I will tell ten other lies to cover up for the one I just said.

Give me some time to digest what this world has to present to me. Because I don’t want to feel anything more than this.

歌曲: 一直没发现 歌手: 吴克群 专辑: 一个人的Tomorrow

打开了房间 墙上贴满你的照片 真庆幸自己的每一天 都能轻易进入你的世界 喜欢你长发披肩 心疼你双手掩面 感觉自己对你很了解 虽然你一直没发现 我这样爱你已经有三四个月 跟你搭地铁 跟你分开逛同一条街 相机里天天装满所有你的一切 每一张都让我伤的呕心沥血 我这样爱你已处在病态边缘 却不能自拔 痴心偏偏往泥沼里陷 柜子里还有好多写给你的信件 每一封都是没有地址的思念

Why is It So Complicated?

The more I think, the weirder the situation becomes, it’s truly confusing. I don’t read implied meanings, spell it out. Why is it so complicated?

歌曲：一年前 歌手：胡彦斌 专辑：音乐密码 Music Code

你还记得一年前 我们初次约会的那天 你靠在我左手的肩 问为什么月亮这么圆 我说是庆祝我和你见面 你说我的嘴怎么这么甜 可是现在的你 不再像从前 是什么让我们疏远 我发现你和我的距离开始越来越远 感觉不到 你还在身边 我只能活在期盼 回到过去的世界 坚持到最后一夜 曾经的一点一点 支离破碎的画面 是否和我一样想念 想念那每一个细节 你还记得一年前 我们初次约会的那天 你靠在我左手的肩 问为什么月亮这么圆 我说是庆祝我和你见面 你说我的嘴怎么这么甜 可是现在的你不再像从前 是什么让我们疏远 我发现你和我的距离开始越来越远 感觉不到 你还在身边 我只能活在期盼 回到过去的世界 坚持到最后一夜 曾经的一点一点 支离破碎的画面 是否和我一样想念 想念那每一个细节 一年前 我发现你和我的距离开始越来越远 感觉不到 你还在身边 我只能活在期盼 回到过去的世界 坚持到最后一夜 曾经的一点一点 支离破碎的画面 是否和我一样想念 想念那每一个细节 想念那每一个细节

Unless

Yeah, I conclude that my deduction is wrong after all and I am not disappointed or sad. That goes to say that I have no emotions or feelings or whatsoever. I am so good at nullifying and numbing my senses. This is totally insignificant and irrelevant, so whatever the outcome, I sort of don’t care.

Rubbish is bound to surface when things get out of hand. Why can’t things be simple and plain? Why are people complicating things for me? When I tell the truth, people don’t want to believe.

Accept me as I am, I am not going to change, unless.

School is so tough.