Desktop Bug

All Uncle’s fault! Now I have an adhesive, irremovable icon on my desktop. He asked me for a picture of my spectacles so I took a photo using my phone and transferred to my computer. When I sent to him, he cancelled it, saying he was only joking. Now the file cannot be deleted from the computer! I tried all means and ways but to no avail. Really irritated by this stupid Uncle, he is nothing but trouble. Bean says he will google the problem and see if there are any solutions out there. But it really is very weird, a very interesting bug. Even Sicher!, Jie Hui and Sean scratch their heads at it.

I don’t like guessing. Because I keep guessing wrongly and I must look like a fool doing that.

“When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.”

And a Hokkien excerpt:

Dang ah ni ku, wa lang eh sai coot ki jia liao. Jin hua hi, jin ku bo kah yi lang gong way, gong pat lang eh pai way, gong ou deng, gong peng you, gou wu jin zuei zuei. Siang eh hiao tak jit eh wa gong yi zai. Ou deng eh gang keh zou buay wan, hoa cai bai goh bian tak cek. Dan si wu jin zuei mi gia zoa, ga peng you jia peng. Jin bo eng ah. Buay sai bin tua, yin wui pat lang ma bo bin tua, wa ma buay sai bin tua. Wa ou deng de sian si jin yan dao, yi eh mia kio Toh Pee Choon. Jit eh mia, wa su ka. Wa siong siong bang dio eh lang eh mia ma si ca but doh siang. Wa kua bo lua zuei lang eh hiao tak hokkien way wa jiu gong. Bo lang eh zai eh. Ho ah. Tat pai ma ai wa gong way seng, li buay sian, wa ma sian. Wa jin li hai jia pia, neng jit eh sai jia wan jit bao Loaker. Wa ga lang hua gih, jin hoa chio.

Bean is such a genius, he solved the icon problem! Uncle must thank him for making him less of a jinx.

介绍好歌

歌曲: 期待爱 歌手: 林俊杰 & 金莎 词: 林怡凤 许环良

俊杰: My life 一直在等待 空荡的口袋 想在里面放一份爱 Why 总是被打败 真的好无奈 其实我实实在在不管帅不帅
俊杰 金莎: 想要找回来 自己的节拍
俊杰: 所以这一次
俊杰 金莎: 我要勇敢大声说出来
俊杰 金莎: 期待期待你发现我的爱 无所不在我自然而然的关怀 你的存在心灵感应的方向 我一眼就看出来 是因为爱
我猜你早已发现我的爱 绕几个弯越靠近越明白 不要走开幸福的开始就是放手去爱

歌曲: 洋葱 歌手: 杨宗纬 专辑: 鸽子 作词/作曲: 阿信(五月天)

如果你眼神能够为我 片刻的降临 如果你能听到心碎的声音 沉默的守护著你 沉默的等奇迹 沉默的让自己 像是空气 大家都吃著聊著笑著今晚多开心 最角落里的我 笑得多合群 盘底的洋葱像我 永远是调味品 偷偷的看著你 偷偷的隐藏著自己 如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心 你会发现 你会讶异 你是我最压抑最深处的秘密 如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心 你会鼻酸 你会流泪 只要你能听到我看到我的全心全意 听你说你和你的他们 暧昧的空气 我和我的绝望 装得很风趣 我就样一颗洋葱 永远是配角戏 多希望能与你有一秒 专属的剧情

歌曲: 背影 歌手: 林宥嘉 专辑: 斗牛, 要不要 作词: 蓝小邪 作曲: 关大州 编曲: 洪信杰

三公分阳光 三公分空气 堵在眼前像一面玻璃 挡住了你表情 剩下只有脚印 一直向前走 走不完距离 一直向后退不出回忆 很高兴有心事 帮我困住自己 你头发上淡淡青草香气 变成了风才能和我相遇 你的目光 蒸发成云 再下成雨我才能够靠近 感谢我不可以 住进你的眼睛 所以才能拥抱你的背影 有再多的遗憾 用来牢牢记住 不完美的所有美丽 感谢我不可以 拥抱你的背影 所以才能变成你的背影 躲在安静角落 不用你回头看 不用珍惜 我怀里所有温暖的空气 变成风也不敢和你相遇 我的心事 蒸发成云 再下成雨却舍不得淋湿你 躲在安静角落 如果你回头看 不用在意

歌曲: 不需理由 歌手: 陈世维 专辑: 不需理由

找了好久 想要的温柔 一直到遇见你以后 你的笑容 想充满氧气的气球 放飞我紧锁的眉头 你问我想我们没有 为什么我会牵你的手 有些爱 有些爱不需理由 不需理由 你只不过 是一个借口 说清楚就只是朋友喔 左边的胸口 是给你的天空 没有一天只会有彩虹 你问我想我们没有 我们能够一起走多久 有些爱 有些爱没有尽头 爱不同会变的不同 只要我们彼此都能感受 那个心早想空的节奏 你问我想我们没有 我们能够一起走多久 有些爱 有些爱没有尽头 就算岁月越多会变成白头 只要我们彼此彼在左右 有些爱 有些爱只为你而守候 有些爱 有些爱不需理由

如此优美的旋律, 如此动人的歌词. 含蓄献上.

4.09AM Good Morning

Opps I fell asleep at around 11 pm and woke up near 4 am. Scary I did not even hear a tingling of the alarm. Amazing I use "Sundial Dreams" as alarm tone because it is not supposed to have the make-you-jump-out-of-bed effect. Listen it here.

While waiting for the MIDI to be uploaded, let me share something. My take on things is that keep things as plain and normal as possible. Don't complicate matters by thinking too much. Very hard to achieve but attainable. Applicable to many people out there in many ways. And the most obvious aspect to apply this fundamentals is emotions. Keep them out of the way especially if they aren't doing you any good.

The MIDI cannot be uplaoded. Too bad. Meet me and I shall play it for you. Few people should be able to wake up with this as alarm tone. If you can, you are so powerful as me.

I ignored some SMSes recently, if not I will take a long time to reply. Because I am taught not to believe in people too easily, I am finding lots and lots of loopholes in things people say and I am skeptical. I don't know what to trust and what not to.

Watever! :P shaped a bit of my MSN style.

So tired and still watching Mcinnes. 4.09 am is a nice time as well.

Of Secrets, Digging, Uncles and Aunties.

Is that a secret as well? Why are there so many secrets going around and ultimately coming into my ears? I have some little secrets too but they aren’t as big-scale as these. More and more secrets unveiled since last year and more and more added this year. Really, I am very bad at keeping them, but if I have promised to, I will. And if I were to sacrifice like Dumbledore, I am very sure the secret of 12 Grimmauld Place will be very much diluted.

I am extremely good at digging information, people tell me a whole lot of their on-goings. Willingly, not unwillingly, not under coercion, not under induction, just simply out of nowhere. I look as if I am always there to lend a listening ear, I look as if I am always full of advice on all kinds of matter, I look as if I am always trustable and reliable. As if. I thought I have a poor reputation for things like that. Tell at your own risk! If you’ve said not to tell, I probably won’t tell anyone you know. If you’re my family and said not to tell, you can rest assured your secret is carried to my grave. If you didn’t say not to tell and I deem it as a secret, I might tell someone you don’t know, just to get it off my chest. And the default case is, SPREAD LIKE WILD FIRE!

Yeah, I told Hui Fang my address here. So now I cannot talk bad about her. No, of course not, I shall continue to. I haven’t said a single bad thing about her. She is very smart, she says the avoidance of pronouns indicates something.

Jonathan says if one keeps dreaming about a person, the person must be important. I hope I can keep dreaming about Xue Gongcan and not some other-random-brain-space-wasting person.

Today, I took MRT back with Lam Lam and the A1 bus uncle remembers me! He was the same one who spoke to me when I carried a printer up his bus the last time! He even asked the other passengers not to board the bus first as I was alighting. I am so happy this uncle hasn’t forgotten me. I hope the Chinese-teaching uncles in Fengshan Primary School will remember me too, they were all so nice to me. I knew it, I can click better with uncles than aunties. The only aunties I can click with are Mummy, and her so-called my-half-Moms. But they are the ones who saw me grow up and gave me lots of support. But so many uncles can talk so much with me. English-speaking aunties and Mandarin-speaking uncles rock!

Read me like a storybook. Next time I shall try posting in Romanized Hokkien, just for the fun of it. Test if anyone other than Anyone can read. Anyone is better off dead at this point in time.

I like to post at 12.09 am, 12.09 pm, 9.12 am or 9.12 pm if possible. Basically because I love myself too much.

Direct in Pin-Pointing Faults

The higher your expectations of somebody are, the greater your disappointment of this person will be. I was still hoping that one of my Ethelonther V group members would be only joking in jest that he would not partake any work in the camp, only to realize he really meant his heck-care attitude and could not be bothered with most things. He said he didn’t care if he irks anyone and nothing done or said to him can break his nonchalant attitude. I have worked with him previously during Shrek Camp and it did not occur to me he was like that at all. That was why I had an impression that he was responsible to his assigned tasks. To me, it wasn’t a simple case of nonchalant attitude, it was a case of lack of responsibility carried too far. My character is already very flawed and here is a person with worse character than me. As a D personality person, (I don't need you to keep emphasizing that, I know it myself) I am very direct in pin-pointing fauts. Seriously, I wonder how I am going to survive being Key Councilor.

Things said in jest. I have done that and received a whole basket full of that. I’m not stopping so if everyone is continuing, we’ll play as things get along.

This blog has no photos, and there won’t be any because the owner doesn’t like facing the camera. Boring words without visual or audio aid.

Good night. Dream not, because it wastes brain space.

So Sorry, And Thanks. Bless You.

So sorry I blocked you on MSN. I am greatly saddened by your series of unfortunate events and am personally in for a spot of difficulty as well. Pardon me for not being able to resolve or share your problems at this point in time. I will help as much as my conscience allow me to but ultimately I have to solve my own problem as well. So sorry I even ignored your SMS, because I simply cannot afford to anymore, given my abyss of trouble. We aren't just as blessed to be able to keep by default what is bestowed. But I am going all out to make sure I keep it. You too, may Buddha bless you.

So sorry to Mr Ong for making you think you've made a wrong foresight on me. I will try my best to prove my salt. I will. Before you say the same thing to me, I will prevent you. May Buddha bless me too.

So sorry I was mean to Uncle just now. He wanted to give a piece cake to Jun Seng and I. And I was mean to say I don't want it because it was Uncle who brought it over. I was too upset by the above two events and had very much clouded emotions. I think I showed a large part of my sadness and hoped no one stepped on my toes but then Uncle had to come and irritate an annoyed and helpless me. He ALWAYS irritates me, I should have known. Nevertheless, I admit, I was really upset and was rude to both Uncle and Jun Seng yesterday. So sorry, may Buddha bless the both of you.

So sorry I dreamt of the same person again. This time it's even weirder, at the last second of my dream, I saw this person standing all alone at a place unrecognisable because I only saw it for one second. Right after the appearance of this person, I woke up. May Buddha bless that person.
And thanks for always giving me a wake-up call at 11 am every Friday. As if I need it. I want more time to sleep, not a free wake-up call, be it intended or not. And the most unwanted one was yesterday when I could have found out what that person in the dream was doing standing all alone. May Buddha bless the callers.

And thanks for listening to me Gladys. Your ear has been blasted yesterday but really thanks so much. I wouldn't know who else to talk to at that point in time as no one there knows my predicament and situation better than you do. Yes, I have a whole load of things hidden from a lot of people who are not my family, I don't know why, people just don't know many things about me because they don't ask and I don't say. So when it comes to pouring woes, I have to fall back on the very few who know my current state and whom I can trust. May Buddha bless your ears.

And thanks for this another chance for me to revive myself. I will work harder so please don't kick me out of the league. May Buddha bless me again.

Some people've gotten more blessings, if you've realised.

And I realise none of the people whom I have said sorry and thanks to will read this because I hid too many things. They don't ask so I don't say. Even if they ask, I don't need a coin in hand to lie. I tell lies like drinking water. And I drink a lot, a lot, a lot of water.

What Time Is It, Mr Wolf?

You are 3:15 p.m.

You are the moment when the last bell rings and school lets out for the day. You are resistant to schedules and obligations, so you love feeling like you're in control of your life again. You are the very moment when the second hand hits the 12, and the halls fill with noise and motion. Even if your after-school time is packed with activities, lessons, or a job, somehow, you just feel freer in the late afternoon than you do earlier in the day. Maybe it's all that blue sky and afternoon sunshine? Nah -- even on rainy days, 3:15 is always a beautiful time.

21% of the people who took this quiz got the same evaluation.

Courtesy of http://www.the-n.com/quizzes/quiz_main.php

Warped Girl

I think I need to block some people on MSN. I am extremely sorry. But they are bothering me too much. Even now when I am at home, I feel as depressed as I am in school. It’s all because of the unwanted updates. And these people are really affecting. I don’t mind people talking to me. But not the kind of people who are nothing but full of requests and endless problems. If we’re simply there for a nice chat, I don’t mind. With an agenda, outside schoolwork, I am glad to be of help, once or twice or even thrice because I regard you as a friend. However, more and more, I need time for myself as well, especially when I am in such dire straits. I feel like blocking you. The one who has given me nothing more than trouble and problems. I really don’t want to categorise you under Not-Friend, but if the need arises, you will have to go there.

On the contrary, I have to start conversations with the people I hope will talk to me but never has, maybe except once, instead of the annoying person. Yet, never mind.

Both Math and Physics Mid-Terms were more than great disappointments, scoring below average isn’t something I can stomach very well. Never mind again.

The more familiar I get to know a person, the more easily I get irritated and annoyed by him/her. I don’t know why but this is a hypothesis I have. As my friends, I have certain standards set for them and I expect them to carry themselves in a manner befitting. This may sound harsh but if they do not follow the protocol, I might be unhappy with their character or behaviour. I am this warped. I find people weird and I think increasingly, people are finding me weird. I am not, I am at most warped and inconsistent but mostly myself. I am a warped girl, I am essentially not a guy, in case anyone is mistaken.

Jie Hui is very nice and I must give him credit here for always giving me a lift to the MRT station, almost becoming part of my weekly pilgrimage. Thank you so much. He asked me if I am following him or his car and I said his car. Yesterday, I still said he was mean but after that because I wanted a lift, I said it was the wind who said he was mean. I am really following cars. Trina’s car is an Estima! Extremely huge and comfortable and her family is a bunch a great people! Lam Lam’s Matrix’s wonderful too and all the way to fetch me which I find simply too angelic for words. The automobile must be one of the greatest inventions of all time.

Jonathan says I look as if I am strong, Dequan says independent, Raj says good at taking care of people and Hui Fang says willful. I am willful, it’s supposed to have a negative connotation there. The euphemisms available are headstrong and determined. Not to deceive myself but to a friend, especially one I deem not-that-not-close, I wouldn’t say something to that extent. It’s always nice to put things as amicably as possible, let the other party hear the criticism behind it between the lines. Because who knows, other people may not be as receptive to bad comments about themselves as you. To a downright direct and straightforward person like me, your similarity in talking, I don’t fancy.

Is that too subtle, let me make it more obvious, opposite poles of a magnet attract. DI and SC make DISC. I am a DI, Gladys is SC, fine.

Weekend’s packed with Yishun, Vanessa’s birthday lunch (or maybe not), Open House, 4L and getting back to school.

明天会不会更好

为什么会是这样的? 为什么? 好郁闷, 好无奈, 好苦. 原来到头来还是得为了以往的过错作补偿, 原来到头来还是不能一笔勾销, 原来是这样. 那我明白了, 谢谢.

昨晚是我唯一有睡饱八小时的一天. 但是做了怪怪的梦, 扰乱了睡眠. 回家睡觉, 不知道明天会不会更好.