色即是空, 空即是色

我的脸是拿来丢的. 很快, 我的脸都会被丢尽. 世间上的事, 谁也预料不到, 所以只好准备一张很厚的脸皮, 来迎接这些难堪的事. 真的很难取舍, 真的很难不伤感, 真的很难不退一步, 真的很难不放手. 丢脸是会丢脸, 挫败是会挫败, 失望是会失望, 沉重是会沉重, 忧伤是会忧伤. 一切的一切, 不过就是一张厚脸皮能够遮住的. 已经丢了这么多次的脸, 要再多丢一些似乎并没有很难, 可是这一次, 丢的好像不只是脸而已, 还包括了一颗心, 一生的名誉, 以前和以后, 金钱和家人, 丢了这些东西, 人生还会完整吗? 要是丢了这么多, 哪还有什么事值得让我留下的?

因为丢了很多, 所以现在的我是空的. 色即是空, 空即是色. 色不亦空, 空不亦色.

大人才玩得起的游戏

什么是大人才玩得起的游戏? 很多游戏都不适合儿童玩, 包括爱情, 友情, 股票, 竞争等等. 我算是儿童吧, 所以不要让我玩这些游戏, 太危险了.

这世界很复杂, 每天都有出乎意料的事情发生. 无论发生什么事, 无论我对这些事的看法和反应是什么, 应该紧记的是, 所有的一切, 都不管我的事. 做人管好自己分内的事就好, 别人正在玩的游戏, 看就好, 笑一下也好. 别人若没有在玩游戏, 可以助他们一臂之力, 看也好, 笑一下也好. 总之, 大人才玩得起的游戏, 千千万万不要假厉害, 跑去插手.

那天太阳狠狠的照在我的肩膀上, 今天雨不绝地落在我的脸庞上. 天气也是一种大人才玩得起的游戏.

对了, 玩不起的大人或自以为是大人的大人, 也最好学一学儿童, 不要把手指给烧坏. 大人才玩得起的游戏, 总就是大人的专利.

Gimme The Sun!

I am red! Never tanned but always red!
我就是不留名!

This is 张峰奇. A monk-turned-singer! Amazing! Not news but still amazing!

歌曲: 我想自由 歌手: 张峰奇 专辑: 婉君表妹

面对自我 矛盾难过 无助脆弱弥漫疑惑 泪水滑落 我曾说过 我想自由 成全只是你的藉口 我不愿懂 你离开以后 我们的承诺 被丢弃角落 灵魂被掏空 我承认是我没有用 为什么你坚持要走 我想自由 不想放手 就算一切无法改变 还是会承受 我想自由 不想分手 你选择走 放我的手 希望离开以后 自由 我曾说过 我想自由 成全只是你的藉口 我不愿懂 你离开以后 我们的承诺 被丢弃角落 灵魂被掏空 我承认是我没有用 为什么你坚持要走 我想自由 不想放手 就算一切 无法改变 还是会承受 我想自由 不想分手 你选择走 放我的手 希望离开以后 自由 我想自由 不想放手 就算一切无法改变 还是会承受 我想自由 不想分手 你选择走 放我的手 希望离开以后 自由

=___=

Nice dinner with Mokuze at Plaza Singapura Pizza Hut.
People are driving me and themselves mad.
I am =___= with a lot of things happening to, around and on me.
Hope =___= can get well soon and eat Popeye with OPF and Vanessa.
Nothingness and Emptiness.
Utterly depressed and disappointed over certain matters.
And extremely exhausted by this hectic schedule.
Can we all stop it?

好久不见

Hui Fang says I haven't been updating my blog for a long, long time. So here I am. Really busy with Ethelonter V trials and Yishun meetings. And also, very busy with a whole load of this and a basketful of that. Why is this such a un-holiday holiday? Besides the fact that I can wake up as late as I like on certain days, of course.

I am very jittery about some things. Yeah, some things that will determine my life and death. Very frightened and scared. It gives some very heart-breaking dreams. If real life is going to be like that, I will be greatly saddened, greatly.

And many things are happening these days. I want to partake in them, not organise them. I really have no time. Sometimes, I really wonder if there can be a day where I don't need to do a single thing for any other person. It's the holidays mind me! Yet a weirdly large pile of work stacks.

People are all rushing off on planes, to places where they can play and have fun. We, the people of frugal and simple lives, stay in Singapore and slog. Life isn't fair, get used to it.

Doves

This is very tiring. Nothing pushes me forward to do more than my best anymore.

歌曲: 鸽子 歌手: 杨宗纬 专辑: 鸽子 词: 郑中庸 曲: 林迈可

我们是想飞向蓝天的鸽子 确定方向不会迷 失跟著快乐王子 一起寻找幸福的地址 我们是永远充满爱的鸽子 迎著风张开双翅 保持优美的滑翔姿势 Forever 就是我们的坚持 有一种感动她的名字叫念旧 就算衬衫有点皱球鞋有点破 就算乡音有点难懂我却是情有独钟 尤其是这一路陪伴的老朋友 放下沈重的包袱心灵从此解脱 换上夹脚拖鞋双脚重获自由 最难过的难过我也已经度过 不要忘记我们曾想要飞翔的梦

Shame On You

I have been trying very hard, for too many things. If people cannot tell, I don't know how else and how much more I can do to show. If people want to pick, I cannot help it but to say I have done my best. What about you? You haven't done your best.

Childishness is the dubbing of public places with personal names.
Childishness is the speaking without the use of an existent brain.
Childishness is the jesty tone used at all times despite the occasion.
Childishness is the dependence on others to put up with your mistakes.
Childishness is the inability to own up to your wrong-doings.

Based on this shallow definition of childishness, I am very surprised, at 19, I am probably less childish than people who are much, much older. Shame on you.

As This Post Says It All

为你写歌

I want to write a song! I have already tried 为你写诗, now I will try 为你写歌. 吴克群 is really inspirational.

歌曲: 复活 歌手: 林宇中 专辑: 淋雨中

你变得像他一样沉默 偶尔也像他一样活泼 连笑声也都一样 我怎么忘也忘不过一秒 我想要爱却看到他离开的刹那 你将爱情带走 留我一个分手的魔咒 叫我伤得彻底 不敢再妄想谁的温柔 看我的眼神闪躲 我知道你有话不能说 我该如何假装 心才不隐隐作痛 你说分手后你(我) 第一次有想爱的念头 可是眼前的是他还是你(我) 还在争夺 我懂你不想承诺 却又无法解开这魔咒 让我在你心里面复活 无数次的复活 我只要你爱我 远远看你勇敢在心头 靠近一点却又太懦弱 不拆穿你的困惑 爱不了我(你) 至少不要难过 任何结果我会点头只要你快乐 你将爱情带走 留我一个分手的魔咒 叫我伤得彻底 不敢再妄想谁的温柔 看我的眼神闪躲 我知道你有话不能说 我该如何假装 心才不隐隐作痛 你说分手后我(你) 第一次有想爱的念头 可是眼前的是他还是你(我)我(你) 还在争夺 我不想给你承诺 却又无法解开这魔咒 让我在你心里面复活 无数次的复活 我只要你爱我 无数次的复活 我只要你爱我

How Much Is That Doggy In The Window

How much is that doggy in the window? The one with the waggly tail. How much is that doggy in the window? I do hope that doggie's for sale. I must take a trip to California. And leave my poor best friend alone. If he has a dog, he won't be lonesome. And the doggy will have a good home. How much is that doggy in the window? The one with the waggly tail. How much is that doggy in the window? I do hope that doggie's for sale. I don't want a rabbit or a kitten. I don't want a parrot that talks. I don't want a bowl of little fishies. You can't take a goldfish for a walk. How much is that doggy in the window? The one with the waggly tail. How much is that doggy in the window? I do hope that doggy's for sale. How much is that doggy in the window? The one with the waggly tail. How much is that doggy in the window? I do hope that doggy's for sale.